這次出差獲益良多，除了感覺自己的成長以外，另一件事倒是在最後一天晚上才驚覺。
原本預定9/26號回台灣，剛好9/27可以到台北看Noel的演唱會，只是人算不如天算，明明我已經抓了兩天的buffer不夠用，9/26早上，在老闆的暗示之下，我得留在東莞。這種事情也不是沒發生過，只是錯過Noel的演唱會，出差期間還發生一些不快的事情，累積幾個月來的憤怒就流露在電話跟mail中。
雖然迅速的獲得了善意的回應，卻無法撫平過去幾個月來的怨念。
晚間，有去聽演唱會的Euyoung傳了他錄下的Don't look back in anger全場大合唱。這是第二次在台北響起這首歌吧！第一次的時候，我也在場，當時不熟這首歌，只有副歌的時候跟著大家一起唱，唱到起雞皮疙瘩。看著晚上在台北的video，我這才好好看這首歌的歌詞。
不看還好，看了一整個懷疑從Noel來台灣，到我買了票卻錯過演唱會，只能在東莞看video找歌詞，可能都是老天的旨意。
Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don’t you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you’d never been
But all the things that you’ve seen
Will slowly fade away
So I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain’t never gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait,
she knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by
Her soul slides away
but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it’s night or day
Please don’t put your life in the hands
Of a Rock ‘n Roll band
Who’ll throw it all away
I’m gonna start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
you ain’t never gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait,
she knows it’s too late as she’s(we’re) walking on by
My(Her) soul slides away
but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
Don’t look back in anger
Don’t look back in anger
I heard you say
At least not today
Don’t you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you’d never been
But all the things that you’ve seen
Will slowly fade away
So I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain’t never gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait,
she knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by
Her soul slides away
but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it’s night or day
Please don’t put your life in the hands
Of a Rock ‘n Roll band
Who’ll throw it all away
I’m gonna start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
you ain’t never gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait,
she knows it’s too late as she’s(we’re) walking on by
My(Her) soul slides away
but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
Don’t look back in anger
Don’t look back in anger
I heard you say
At least not today
去年此時也很忙，也覺得不太順利，但是沒有這麼多的不愉快累積。雖然過往的經驗總證明〝傷痛讓人強壯、苦難是人成長〞。只是這次深深的體認到對於不公平的現狀持續沉默，不僅僅是讓他人的強勢踩過頭，更可能會變成不良示範。
大概是很多的不滿放太久、放太多了，當天跟老闆講完以後，情緒依然低落。
直到反覆的聽著曲子結尾那一句Don’t
look back in anger, Don’t look back in anger……。
睡前的我還有點眼淚，可是我知道明天都會過去，又是一個開始。
